all you need is love

http://www.brown.edu/Departments/Italian_Studies/dweb/arts/music/mmaudio.shtml



oh, hello livejournal.

MEDIEVAL MUSIC:

http://music.aol.com/artist/altramar-medieval-music-ensemble/200616/main







Charlamagne: Le plus probablement réussir.

Edouard III: le plus probablement trahir son pays.

Jeanne D’Arc: le plus probablement devenir sorcière (et est brûlé au pieu).

Asterix: le plus probablement devenir comédien.

Roland: Le plus probablement gagner une guerre.

Louis VII: le plus probablement épouser des jeunes.

Richard Coeur De Leon: le plus probablement pour montrer le courage en danger.

Alienor d’Aquitaine: le plus probablement être mis dans la prison.

i completely forgot about this thing.

i dont know, school is pretty much consuming my life right now.
for the first time i actually want to get all my work done.


i went for a job interview at the vet the other day and i went in really wanting the job, and i walked out really not wanting it at all. i didnt realize it was such a physical job and usually i wouldn't have a problem with that but i have so much going on this year and its so demanding and i just dont know. also when i was given the "grand tour" i went into the cat holding room and there was a cat who had just come out of surgery and she was hooked up to a machine and shaking profusely and the guy was almost like laughing at it and it made me feel sick cause when i put timmy to sleep and ugh. i dont know.
so we'll see about that.
after the interview i went to see black dahlia with syll, giana, brittany, jenna, mike, eileen, and joe. it was good in a completely different way then i expected. then we all went to starbucks for a bit and then i went home for the first time in a week and it was weird.
today i did all my AP english work and now im exhausted and the yankees are winning the 2nd game of a double header and jeter<33 thats all.
oh wait and eli tomorrow but also more work.


she looks like that dead girl!

"the definition of insanity is to do the same things over and over again and expect different results."
-albert einstein









all ive been eating are ice pops and ramen soup.


i have one of the toughest decisions of my life to think about and i dont even know where to begin.


if eli wins, things will get better.


( plus this )

so yeah california was really nice, it was great to get a break from new york and just not have any real obligations. going with syll made it extra great cause she cracks me up like no other and it was just really enjoyable. its really good to have a friend you can always really count on and not just say that to make yourself feel better. i met her crazy family over there which was a fun adventure, and im glad i went. pictures soon.

okay, so school. im actually surprised to say that im really happy with my schedule and how things shook out. yesterday i was dreading going because the ap bio thing still hadn't been resolved. so today 3rd period i stormed in there and demanded to see morales and refused to make an appointment. i was not walking into ap bio with no summer work done and no excuse for why i am one of the laziest people ever. so yeah, he felt really bad after i ranted to him that he even threw in a 7th period lunch everyday. look at that. i should be more demanding more often. i dont know though its really not my personality.
the one bad thing about today was the way i felt. which was of course like shit. cant start off the new school year right without feeling like death is upon you. i have a fever now but i think its going down and i think its just because i havent really slept in the past 24 hours.
anyway, i hope everyone enjoys their schedule as much as i do. and i cannot wait for the year to end only because of how important it is, and how much work i have to put into it.but whatever. thats life.
anyway ive sort of decided to do real productive things this year, including school but also outside of it. already this year is better than last year, mostly because im not in catholic school.

cheers.

leaving for california tomorrow with sylvia!

pumped.

see you all in school.

omgwtf its kiki: steven
Notnow27: kristen
omgwtf its kiki: why do people constantly lie
Notnow27: because they're lost
Notnow27: their thought processes are just taking them in too many directions and they feel lost in a web of hypotheticals and could-haves.. so they lie.. lying down the pieces of a puzzle that they hope will eventually come together but which usually results in nothing more than a jumbled mess that you'll need to scoop up before vacuuming the floor
omgwtf its kiki: are you high?
omgwtf its kiki: thats brilliant.
omgwtf its kiki: and very true.
Notnow27: nope i'm not high... i can't argue with you on the brilliant part though
omgwtf its kiki: it makes a lot of sense
omgwtf its kiki: it just hurts
Notnow27: sorry kid... thats just how it goes



there it is.


i miss alex, adam, dana, and daliliah a lot.

i got new sunglasses today.
they don't even compare, really.
i seriously spent about 2 hours looking, trying on, finding something wrong with them, putting them back. i finally found a pair that are sort of like a modernized version of the old, and pretty much the same color.
still.


new iPod is coming tomorrow. i didnt realize how much i missed my music until im sitting on the train from jamaica by myself with nothing at all to do and i felt really weird. it was so quiet.

roughly two weeks until school starts. i have to finish up the book im reading and read another one which shouldn't be too bad. if im into a book i can read it in about two hours. but then i have to take notes, write an essay on "something new i did this summer" (thanks for bringing me back to fourth grade type assignments) and finally, write a letter to hartmann on how i felt my summer reading went. i've been thinking of jazzing it up and making it into the sickest love note ever, but i figure i want to make a somewhat sane first "student" impression. it was just a thought for fun.

alex comes home the 28th, dad's birthday is the 29th, and then california the 30th. band camp, might i add, ruins all of this (except california cause it cancels out band camp, ship it). i guess what im trying to say is its just an overall inconvenience.

i haven't watched lord of the rings in a while and i think i should cause i really miss that movie. sister, mary and i used to be obsessed with it and somehow it fell out of our (or maybe just my) life.

ear ache's gone, let's make plans.

oh and ( here im bored )

well, my sunglasses finally broke.
rather my foot broke them.
either way they are still gone.
now, ordinarily i do not get so attached to a material object but in this case it was different.
these glasses were pretty much a part of my face and im really sad i dont have them anymore.
also, my ipod was carelessly dropped in the ocean by my mom today, so things arent going so well.
since i am bored and sick and these glasses meant a lot ot me, i found some pictures of him.
ill post them.
you'll probably find me a tool for doing this but i dont care because im bored.

RIP- sunglasses (sometime in april 2005 -- august 20, 2006)
RIP- melvin the ipod (june 3rd 2005 -- august 21, 2006)

le sigh.



( my favorite thing )

okay so im thinking of going curly.
id like to know your opinions on this.
and ignore the patented myspace angle, my hair is very long and i couldnt really get it to fit.
so.

please give me your thoughts.


california mad soon. im excited. :)



( curly hair )

dashboard concert was really really good.
lots to tell.
pictures will be up soon.


anyway.

i should not be this upset that johnny damon's wife is pregnant.
i just cant handle it.

baseballs getting pretty exciting, so thats always a plus.
daliliah's here!! and once again, in coincides with syll being awayyy.
i dont know how these things happen.

im spending the night in some random town to go to splish splash all day tomorrow so that should be fun. however its only going to be me and daliliah so i hope we do not get lost there.

in other news, im really starting to question some things.
like some things just seem ridiculous to me when i think about them.
like take gameshows for example like millionaire or the pyramid thing.
there are very large sums of money given away for no reason and meanwhile people are starving to death or from the cold/heat who can't afford better things. and im not just talking about foreign countries, its right here too. and it sucks that we're wasting these large amounts of money on people who are comfortably living. i do not get it. the world just makes more sense at 3 am.
and people. im starting to question some people too.


but i guess thats its for now.

i feel like someone drilled me in the side of my hip.
and i can no longer walk.
well.




i can feel the shards of my hip bone floating around in my leg.
this is the most unpleasant feeling i think i've ever had.
except for when the TV fell on my face.
which is a pain i scarcely remember.

ive just read an article about gangs taking over my old hometown.
this is depressing.


who on earth would want to terrorize people who live in the middle of no where?
these people suffer enough cause theres nothing to do.
i guess thats why they do it then, cause these kids are bored and are looking for acceptance or just something to do after school.
this is sick.

anyway, john lennon.

alex this friday.
dashboard this saturday.
get pumped.

its already august and thats very, very depressing.
this war is also depressing too, not only ours but the israeli/hezbollah one also. it's madness and pointless and not worth it. it's been weighing down on me lately and i don't know why. this world is just spinning out of control. ah. madness.
this heat also sucks massively, i'm literally afraid to walk out of the house. yesterday the walk to giana's from syll's seemed like hours when really it was only about 5 minutes. its incredibly painful out there. thank the lord for AC.
i have the doctor's today and i really, really do not want to go. i have always hated doctor's and i always most likely will.
anyway, i think this lidle guy is the cutest little pitcher since mike mussina. there is just something about him that is adorable. abreu, eh. he walks a lot, so that's good news. but i just don't think that he is necessary at this point in time. maybe i am just saying that because i love melky and would like him to be a constant player or at least an option to play. ohh well. i have no say in what goes on anyway i dont know why i'm even thinking about it.
the insomnia is getting worse, i stayed up till 6am with giana the other night and was not even tired at all. last night i took an advil PM, it didn't work, so i took another one. it took about a half an hour to kick in, but boy when it did. i don't even remember. i woke up with my ipod around my neck and a half eaten toaster strudel on the table next to me. it was so bizarre. i dont know how i feel about it. it helped though, i guess thats the bottom line.
i feel like i haven't been doing anything lately so make plans with me and we'll do something. cause summers almost over.
so basically, war sucks, heat sucks, AC rocks, doctor's suck, cutie pitchers, 1st place, insomnia, advil PMs, leave plans.

she's coming home tomorrow :):) thats exciting.
permit soon.
august is going to be the fullest month of my life probably.
but im excited.

bahhh leave plans?



edit ::: reccomend good books to read for summer reading? i cant think of anything. thanks.

boston was a lot of fun.
i miss it a lot.
probably the best part of summer so far.

hung out with jenna today.
it made me really happy cause i really missed her.
she's the best.

yankees.


billie holiday is my new favorite thing.

'What will your obituary say?' at QuizGalaxy.com

haha.

5 YEARS AG0.....
How old were you?: 11
Where did you go to school?: summer between PMEC and LBMS.
Where did you work?: i think it was illegal so. idk probably ctown.
Where did you live?: Long Beach
Where did you hang out?: TJ Gumiela, sister, cousin. creepy kids from merrick. i was lost, so lost.
How was your hair style: long greasy strands of shit brown
Did you wear braces?: nope
Did you wear glasses?: not yet
Who was your best friend?: Daliliah Dequevedo
Who was your regular-person crush?: Corey Laux, God bless his soul in Austrailia
How many tattoos did you have?: none
How many piercings did you have?: haha none look at me go
What car did you drive?: the kind where you walk
What was your favorite band/group: hmm...beatles
What was your worst fear?: going to the new school in the fall.
Had you smoked a cigarette yet?: nope
Had you gotten drunk or high yet?: mmm...nope
Had you driven yet?: nope
Had you been to a real party yet?: yeah when i was little daliliah's cousin had one i think.
Had your heart broken?: Uhmm yes.

JULY 2006
How old are you?: 16
What grade are you in?: going into 11th
Where do you go to school?: LBHS
Where do you work?: still looking
Where do you live?: good ol' boring LB
Where do you hang out?: mostly the east end, sometimes lido
How is your hair style?: not greasy anymore, still brown, sort of bangs
Do you have braces?: hahah no
Do you wear glasses?: contacts
Still talk to any of your old friends?: Indeed i do
Who is your celebrity crush?: God there are so many. Mostly sports guys (Prucha, Derek, Sizemore, Damon, Beckham, C. Renaldo from Portugal, Jake Gyllenhaal, Heath Ledger, Dhani Harrison, etc)
Who is your regular-person crush?: I don't even know at the moment
How many piercings do you have?: none...i want to get some though
How many tattoos?: none
What kind of car do you have?: I'm still working on that driving part
What is your favorite singer/band/group?: Beatles, squeeze, rilo kiley, kanye, jack johnson, ben folds
What is your biggest fear?: Currently? ending up that person who has pushed everyone away and then complains about it
Have you been to a real party?: Mhm
Has your heart been broken?: No.


Questions

l a s t:
1. friend you saw: does Mary count? before that, all the people who went to pirates.
2. Talked to on the phone: Dadd
3. Text: Al
4. Messaged over myspace: Do not have one

t o d a y
1. Wearing: still my PJs...yeah i just woke up
2. Better than yesterday?: what does it matter?

t o m o r r o w
1. Is: Humpday!
2. Got any plans: hopefully going to boston with dana
3. Dislikes about tomorrow: nothing!

f a v o r i t e
1. Number: 4
2. Color: Burgundy
3. Season: Summer cause no school, fall cause its really pretty and chill.

c u r r e n t l y
1.Missing someone: sister, adam, dana, mary, syll, irvin, steven, dad, daliliah, joey burns, corey laux, dutchy, franc, eileen, and a frillion other people
2. Mood: tired as hell
3. Wanting: Food, and for the arm swelling to go down from the bee sting.

sometimes, i wish my name was cosette. i really, really want a shitload of bottle caps right now, and somebody to talk to. however, at 1:30 in the morning those people are hard to find. the people i want to talk to most are either out of state or out of country. i want to destroy all things chemistry. if that pretty much means the world, then so be it. i want to get my kitten, but its probably not going to happen. i also want to move, which may or may not happen. i would like to get my summer reading done. i really hope the yankees get better after the break and im glad italy won the world but seeing the french goalie's face afterwards was heartbreaking and theyshouldn't make it a shootout for the last game they should play till theyre dead cause its not fair the net is so big but im happy they won.
...
i want to listen to lots and lots of sad music for some reason which i havent done in ages. i want the parents to actually communicate instead of me being the middle man. (woman?) i want to teach myself more songs on piano cause im getting better. I want to get over myself and actually take some chances with things, either that or go back to seeing that crazy psychologis.t. there is a message on the machine but i dont want to check it and i wish i could stop watching epidsodes of degrassi because its a terrible terrible show but somewhat addiciting. i think im going to go watch american history X and eat another pint of ice cream and try to fall asleep which has been a problem lately while thinking of ways to cut down on eating which will also never happen because im not diciplined and i want to end this journal and vent to real people.

got a 68 on chem regents (ship it, i passed)
daliliah came up
napped
watched movies
drank lots o starbucks (they lack one in PA)
saw click
cried at click and i dont cry at movies
i think my emotions were running all over the place
took long walks on the boardwalk
ate quiznos flatbread salad (with real forks)
lots of degrassi
the show is sort of growing on me (yeah, i missed that boat)
mall, mad bargains, mad fights with checkout people
getting mad checked out by people
mad giving of the fingers of me and daliliah to said people
ice creamz
long serious talks
long funny talks
staying up till 4 am every night (morning?)
catching up
lazy days
britt's pahrty
fireworks
love of our lives (we found one)
american history X/Rory O'Shea was here
creepy spanish guy at corner who is obsessed with daliliah and speaks to her in spanish so i cant understand (fucker)
BODIES EXHIBIT holy shit i was buggin.
real dead bodies out in the open (one was holding a yankees ball and pitching it, i smiled)
fetus
more fetus
connected fetus
horrifying but cool
hairy smelly russian speaking kid taking our spot in line
free ice cones from a psychic!
getting concussed on the window, still cant walk real straight/large headaches
thunderstorms
baseball in the rain at the beach during lightning storm
prettty
long talks again
MAD GAB! what a great game
laughing
a lot
more food
said goodbyee
train rides home :(
a lack of dee, syll, sister, irvin, mary
a lack of lots of people
job or no job?
yankees kicked the shit out of the mets
jimmy died.
the best one there, may he rest in peace :'(